It’s Tuesday O Boy!

I guess this morning has not been all that bad. It could have been worse we all know that from my past blogging. Anyways so I got up and got Jordan on the bus. Got Lexi her breakfast. And got Lucian situated. I got his diaper changed got him suctioned out, got him fed, and cleaned his g tube and got him dressed. Now I am just waiting on home health to come out and they repair man that is going to fix our dryer. And then I have to be at work by four. So far all the snow we were so post to get has held off hopefully it will continue because I hate snow so bad. They only way I like it is if I am going to be snowed in and I doubt that is going to happen but it would be scary if that happened anyways because what if we had to go to the hospital. The main thing I worry about is our drive way drifting shut because we are literally in the middle of no where. I am on my second pot of coffee and it taste so good. I cant wait until our dryer is fixed because we probably have atleast 15 loads. It is going to be terrible getting cought up. Plus alot of them are blankets from Lucian getting sick which cant be helped. I have been getting 4 to 5 hours sleep s I have been feeling better than if I were to get none or 2 hours that is for sure. I have alot of appointments I am going to have to set up at some point. I have to set up for myself and gyno appointment and then a check up for another issue lucians pediatrician appointment we have his dilations, we have the pulmonologist appointment. A nutritionist appointment, and then we have home health out and our house an then all the rest of them that come out. Speech therapist, develop mentalist, occupational therapist, physical therapist, and so on there are a couple more. But I have all these people that come out then in the mix i have to make all the appointments and then there is school work and Lexi and Jordan home work, baths and Lucian and all of his care. And lets not forget in the mix Dinner cleaning the house, and feeding the animals and sleep. And all the small b.s in the middle of that tornado. It is non stop all the time. Some times i just want to scream some times i just want to break down. Some times I just want to breakdown and cry and just let it out but i don really cry in front of people and if i do then you know there is a problem. But it just seems like it would make me feel better. I dono maybe not. I just now I can mostly deal with everything as long as I am for the most getting a few hours sleep. I hope everyone is doing well and again I can not say thank you enough to all the people that read my blog and care. Laura,Priscilla,nick,and the farmers wife since i am not sure of your real name. Thank you to all of you it means so much to me. And if you just stop in and read my blog and you have left me a comment thank you to you all as well. Lots of love and happy Tuesday.