Updates on The Kids

So I was thinking and I think that octomom has got to be out of her ever loven mind. I think I would be out of mine alone if I just had twins. It is hard enough for me with a 2 year old and a 2 month old . Let alone twins or 14 babies. That crazy broad doesn’t even have a husband or even a significant other. That house hold can not possibly be a healthy one. Look at the amount of help she would have to have and it shows her on tv with holding all those babies. Yeah right.

I guess I was just thinking about all of that because I find it hard enough to take care of lucian and silas and lucian is 2. Grand it he is not a normal two year old sine he is tube fed. He is still dependent on us still which is ok he will eventually get to where he is so post to be when he is ready on his time. My little bubbers. And silas he still has thrush and we are in the middle of switching his formula from enfamil prosobee to enfamil ar. He seems to be doing a little better but it will take a few days to really be able to notice a difference.

Here some time in the beginning of February I will be getting ready to go back to work. I really don’t want to but it is what will be best for our family. So I have to. I have this guilt about working and not being with my kids. But I think the only thing that keeps me ok is that every other parent in america pretty much has to work to take care of there family. I am working on what my nw schedule will be as far as home and work and I am not done with it by far. At the end of January I will know more of what will come and what my schedule will be. I cna’t wait to start my new year everyone else already has. My time will come.

I have been so exhausted lately,I had to break down and ask my mom for a night of help. I just couldn’t go any more. I feel better now. I took a chunk of this morning and rested as best as I could. I am so tired and I find it so hard to rest. Then when I do rest it takes everything I have to get out of bed. I got up this morning and got lexi and Jordan on he bus and then laid back down because lucian was still asleep. Strangely we got awoke this morning by Lucians pulse ox monitor going off. Strange thing is it was not plugged in or even turned on and was not being used but when we tried to shut it off it wouldnt shut off. Finally i took it out of our room and started hitting it and pushing buttons and it shut off and we haven’t heard it since. Weird. Not to mention I had to listen to my son cry las night for 45 minutes because he was scared because he saw something out his window that looked like a cloud that was coming closer to him when he looked at it. Turns out when I got to the bottom of it which I was bound to do he watched a haunting show at his dads on channel 41. I assured him none of what he saw was true and he had nothing to worry about. I felt like I was lying to my son when I believe in ghosts. But he just doesnt have the mind concept to understand, and I actually remember when I was his age I had a similar experience and my mom had to calm me down. He reminds me so much of how I was when I was a little girl. Needless to say i let him watch a cartoon before he went to bed an he woke up a happy boy. Hopefully tonight at bed time it is better than last night. My daughter she doesnt seem to eb afraid of anything at all. Well as long as she has a night light.

But this is just a little bit of what has been going on. There is alot more but I just don’t have the time to finsh right now. I will be back with more updates when I can.