O my Night….

O my I am exhausted. I didn’t get home from work until almost 9 then I had to get the kids from my mom and get them home and situated. I got to work this morning at like 5 til 10 and was so post to get off at six but someone had to leave early so I ended up staying well having to stay later because there cant be anyone there by there self at night time. So I made pizzas all morning and night and did the cash drawer as well. My work was cut out for me that was for sure. I was just frustrated because after being gone all day away from my kids all I wanted at 6 was to be with them and it just wasn’t happening. And I just was like come on I worked my shift, but then it is extra hours for me s I really cant complain. Although I am just tired. I drink so much coffee it is ridiculous. I still haven’t gotten rid of this cough from a cold I have had awhile back I just wish it would go on some where. My hours at work might be getting some what a witched which would make my life a whole lot easier possibly. But it could make it harder i am not sure at this point. If I take the early shift from 4 til 8 then I would work 10-2 it would give me my hours and I would be home early after noon hopefully before the kids get out of school and then I would have more time to plan for appointments for the kids mostly lucian but I am needing to get Jordan in for a check up and a evaluation and Lexi has her epilepsy appointments and she needs to get in to the dentist as well as just the pediatrician. And then there is all of Lucian’s appointments with all of the therapists and home health and things like that, that I also have to schedule around it is just alot easier actually having the time to do it although I usually always find the time to fit in the necessary things, but there are some things that have been pushed off that need attention. I guess if I took that shift I would be hoping I could get on some sort of a routine like where I get home before the kids get most of the house work done and then I can do there home work with them and get Lucian situated and get dinner and there baths and I would still have time to study. Studding late is hard it is hard to comprehend things. But I just feel like the sooner I get it out of the way maybe I can get on at the hospital where I really want to work in the first place. I would love to get on at St. John’s. It is a great hospital I just hope some of the people that work there understand I am a totally different person to work with than I am a parent and when I am in there with my son I have to fight for what is right for him because no one else will but us. Well Doctor Rogers he always makes sure things are in line. I dono how the man does it I tell you what. I mean he is at work early and works late and he has alot going on when does he sleep? He is a great man. Lucian is doing well. He is still eating by mouth well. He has been in a great mood as always and I just love hearing him first thing in the morning it doesn’t matter if I have 2 3 or 5 hours of sleep or none at all the minute I hear his voice it puts me on cloud nine. If anything ever happened to him I dono what I would do or any of my kids for that matter. I love them so very much they keep me going although sometimes I am rather cranky, I just wanna get the things I need to get accomplished accomplished so I can move on and get on at the hospital that will make me so much happier. I knwo it will I can feel it in my heart. Tonight I am praying that I will get the strength knowledge and time and understanding to get my schooling done as quickly as time allows me. I am praying for good health for all of my friends and family and that god will watch over all of us and keep us safe amen good night ya’ll.