5/14/09

I am still alive but I am tired and I have a terrible cold or something. Probably got it from Lexi and Lucian I know I feel terrible. I am exhausted from working. I have had probably 8 hours of sleep in the last couple days between everything. Lucian is still sick but he has not been vomiting like he was. He is so stuffy though.But he was in a great mood before I left for work yesterday. I hope I feel better soon I do like like feeling like this and it is even harder pregnant. I have a head ache which I am sure is from lack of sleep. I swear I am going to get off work and one of these days I am going to sleep sleep sleep, I hope. I fell asleep yesterday before I had to got to work for an hour and not on purpose either, I am so thankful to have Travis especially when I get wore down like this because he helps me out quite a bit. Some men don’t help at all. I over slept yesterday anyways by like 15 minutes its alot when you have to value each minute of your time to get things accomplished. I am thinking of picking up a second job. We could use the extra money and if I can just hang in there for a while longer. I want to try and save up money so that I can take a little extra time off after I have the baby, But one day at a time. I am just glad this week is almost over. I am going to have lots of appointments coming up here soon. Storms have been super bad here lately. High winds rain tornado’s boy o boy. After I got to work on Wednesday I felt kind of bad because I found out that on that night they were stripping the wax off the floors and then rewaxing and there was no way i could of stayed and helped one the smell and me being pregnant two they didn’t leave until 6:45 am and I would have gotten to work at 4 and had to stay that long. Even if I would have stayed until 2 I wouldn’t have got home home until 2:30 ,2:45 and then it takes me an hour to wind down and I have to shower and so I wouldn’t have got to bed until probably 3:30 and honestly with Lucian being sick and me having to pee and having heartburn. I only got about 3 hours of sleep anyways. I probably wouldn’t have even gone to sleep and then last night I was up all night couldn’t breathe , had heartburn and to pee and Lucian is all stuffy so he keeps loosing his bink, it has been a time but I know it will get better and that is what keeps me going. Anyways after we closed last night we and to put an extra coat of wax on the floor so it involved moving all the displays and it really didn’t take that long I was home by 12:15 but the smell of that stuff o my god. I will say I was quite pissed when he called and said we had to do that. Technically the other kid that was working did the wax because I have never done it before,and apparently there is a special way you have to put it on. I just don’t like breathing in all of that being pregnant.
Lexi is doing better her cold is pretty much gone. Jordan never really has gotten it praise the lord and little Lucian and I well I guess I shouldn’t have been kissing him in the face and maybe I wouldn’t be sick right now but I love giving him kisses and he loves it to. The smile on his face. My little bubbers, I am hoping I can drink enough coffee and not get sick this morning to atleast get me through the day.A couple cups. It is bright and sunny today. I clicked on nancy grace last night and there are so many precious missing little children and I just don’t get it. There are so many nasty sick people out there. I mean how is someone going to abduct a child from there own yard to get a 4 year old and when the older 12 year old sister tried to help her he knocked her in the head. I pray they find this little girl and I m wondering what happened to Haleigh Cummings no news on that so is she just gone they give up and that is it but caylee is dead and found and she still gets all the coverage. don’t get me wrong that story I fallowed from the beginning and it touched me and they can still cover the trail but every kid deserves the same chance as another to be found. It makes me mad. Anyways I have to get off of here because I have to leave for work soon and before that I have to get Lexi dressed Lucian dressed fed and diapered and myself situated in a short amount of time. I hope you all have a great day.