Happy Friday everyone! Well Almost!

So I got the call from doctor Rogers today well it was his nurse but just as well, I am sure his schedule is crammed. As is mine I have noticed after checking my work schedule for the next week,Anyways I was wanting to check and see if Lucian could be put on reglan aside from his prevcid. Because of his reflux, but there is a big but. I guess there is a side affect that can go with reglan that once you get it you have it for forever and there is no getting rid of it. She said there is no way they can predict weather Lucian will react to it in that way or if he would be ok. But with everything he has already been through and everything he is still going through there is no way we are going to chance it, especially with it being something that once you get the side effect it doesn’t go away and if i am correct but i may be wrong the side effect is similar to seizures. Anyways he said the last time he went down to look at Lucians esophagus it looked good it didn’t look damaged from acid so that is very good. He still is not wanting to eat for me by mouth but he is all about licking things off my fingers for some reason. So should I feed him that way? It doesn’t seem the right way to teach him to eat. I don I want him to eat so badly. It isn’t like he doesn’t like taste. Maybe he doesn’t like the texture in his mouth but it never bothered him before a week ago he was fine. So I really don’t know what it is. But it is something. He has this light up fishy thing that plays classical music and you can watch the fish swim in the water and it attaches tot he side of his bed. It really is pretty cool. Maybe it is my fault maybe I should have never have started giving him bites of food by mouth off my finger but the thing is I only did it when I was eating something like home made mashed potatoes I would dip my finger in it and then he would lick it. But I didn’t think any thing of it at all. I dono I really dono. God I am so thankful I have tomorrow off. I cant wait until my books get here so I can start school. It is amazing how many times Lexi9 comes to tell me she loves me. Jordan has already lost his Nintendo d.s charger so I know what I am going to be doing probably getting a new one because i have ripped the house apart and it has not showed up anywhere. i think we have a ghost. Things don’t just disappear like that it just makes me mad because now i have to spend money i don’t have because my mom just went and spent the hundred or what ever it was with the games. She didn’t get it so that he couldn’t play it so I guess I have to fix the problem I just pray I come across it. I have everything pretty much ready for tomorrow so I hope my day goes by very slowly tomorrow. I will feel better once I get Saturday over with it is going to be a very long shift. So I really do think my smokie smoke is gone it has been along time now since he has been gone and I have not seen him anywhere or any sign of him. It makes me so sad. I have had that cat for forever, I wish I could of just seen him one last time or said good by or things would have been or were different. If I only new I would change so many different things. I would have kept him inside. Then I would have known he would have been ok. The only thing I can think of is maybe he got hit and ended up int he ditch, or that he got into rat poison that is in the farm machine shed. So I dono I understand everything happens for a reason but this shit sucks. I am hoping I get a good nights sleep tonight I am telling you what I am going to hit that pillow and be out like a light it always happens that way. The days of goin to bed and it taken me thirty minutes to clear my head and go to sleep are over. I hit that bed with my pillow an blanket and I am out.night night every one!