The Day After the Fourth of July

I will just start with I hope everyone had a great fourth of July. I unfortunately had to work all day and didn’t get off until seven O’clock at night and it rained all day long here and night. By the time I got home got dinner got showered and everything I was just exhausted we talked about going to see fire works but t about 8:30 we decided we would get there and have to turn around and Lucian was tired and like I said it was nasty old rain. However Lexi and Jordan were so post to get to see fire works with there dad and grandparents so I hope that went through for them because they always look forward to seeing them every year. I will get them back tomorrow after noon after my appointment. Travis wanted to go with me tomorrow and I wanted him to of coarse to my appointments and we didn’t have anyone else to watch them and I was not dragging three kids in for a prenatal appointment and a sonogram that is for sure. My mom was busy with my nephew so I am glad it has worked out the way it has.
I tried to go to bed at a decent hour last night and I just kept tossing and turning with heart burn all night long. It seems like everythign I eat or drink or anything that comes close to my mouth gives me heart burn. You knwo what they say about that? Heart burn your going to have a baby with a full head of hair? I hope it comes out true! Bottom line I am so excited about these appointments I have been counting down since day 30! I just want to know that everything is alright. I don’t feel that anything is wrong like when I was pregnant with Lucian I could just tell but everyone just kept telling me I was having a perfectly healthy 8 1/2 pound baby boy. Yeah right cut that in half. Half of that 8 1/2lbs was extra amniotic fluid. Turns out he was only 4lbs 9 ounces. Wow were they off. That is what scares me the most how can you miss something like that? These people will probably think I crazy with all the questions I am going to have for them but I have the right to ask anything I want to. So my appointment is at 1:15pm and 2:15 pm sonogram first that is awesome. So I will be posting new sonogram pictures and let everyone know what is going on.
Our Grandma has been in the hospital now for several days and I am so hoping she gets to come home today. I am just glad the surgery went well. I am even more glad that it is over and done with for her now and she doesn’t have to worry about facing it anymore. I love her so much. Her and Travis’s mom are great inspirations in my life. I am so lucky to have them in my life. I said a prayer for Travis’s mom last night she is always stretched in so many different directions and has faced so many issues I don’t know how she keeps going she just does and looking at her it keeps me going. Those women are the best.
I have a goal and I don’t knwo how easy it is going to be but I would like to get Lucian around his family more often s that maybe one day he can stay with grandma and grandpa and I will feel comfortable and know that he is not going to cry the whole time. You would think like most kids he would just cry for a bit then settle down. Not our Lucian he stays mad til the full extent and then if he falls asleep crying he will wake up crying. Lucian also is very much a home body. Which there is nothing wrong with that we just couldn’t get him out like what we would have liked after he was born because of his issues. 8 months later aft6er the discharge from the hospital we were in and out either every week or every two weeks. I am hoping it will be a little different this time. One thing I am looking forward to this time is breastfeeding. I wanted to so bad and had my heart set on it and obviously couldn’t because Lucian couldn’t swallow. As hard and as depressed as I was at that point I still kept pumping to store it away for him so he could eventually have it. I did it for quite awhile but then things were happening at the hospital we were being transferred to Chicago and I would pump and pump and pump and just wouldn’t get anything. They even put me on a medicine to try and help me produce it worked for a tiny bit then we just decided to be done. So this time I am really looking forward to it. Only four more months to go wow time flies by.
I again want to think everyone for all of there great support on here this blog is something that keeps me going as well. A way for me to express myself and my feelings.
It looks as if it is going to be another rainy day today I sure hope not. I have to get off of here now someone named little man is yelling for me. I love his little voice. I am still working on hi9m saying mom mom or mama. Hasn’t got it yet but he will I know it. Bye for now and I hope you all have a great day.