Updates 6/10/09

So whats new here huh? Well I have been so busy with work kids and appointment’s and home I am just simply wore out. I have been finding myself falling asleep on the floor. I’ll start with Lucian first. He has been doing pretty well. We have been working on his food in take by mouth slow but steady. Some days he just doesn’t want anything to do with it other days he is all for it. I am just trying to make sure he is gaining weight. He is getting so tall and stretching out so much. He has alot of new toys and he seems to love them I was trying to find him things he can push around on the floor and alot of things that light up. He loves everythign so that makes me happy. Jordan and Lexi are doing well anxious to go back to school though. Other than that they are doing well staying busy playing watching movies and playing outside and with there cousin.
I have just been really wore out from work and home and just being pregnant. The whole being pregnant is what really wares me out because I cant drink all the coffee I used to. I still drink some but not alot. I have been trying to eat alot of good foods so that the baby gets good things. I can feel him or kicking. I have been able to for awhile at first up until recently it was alot of little flutters and now it is kicking so that makes me feel better. It’s going to be a strong little thing. I have a couple of appointments coming up here real soon. A prenatal appointment and another sonogram. This sonogram is so post to be a quad screen. They are going to check and make sure the baby is growing alright and make sure all the organs are ok and check for any anomalies like esophageal atresia or other things. PLEASE EVERYONE PRAY OUR BABY IS GOING TO BE HEALTHY PLEASE, I NEED YOUR PRAYERS. At this point we don’t even care about the sex of the baby we just want to know that everythign is going to be ok an that we are going to have a healthy baby. I am already panicing and worrying about lucian when we go to have this baby. Lucian is so partial and always only wants Travis or I. He really is not a people person at all, and gee I wonder why every person he has ever ran across has had to do something to him he didnt like in his past so I think he automatically assumes it is gonna be that way with everyone. The developmentalist says it is stranger anxiety but I beg to differ and don’t think it is just that I really don’t know what it is other than we have been by his side every minute of the day for his whole life that is probably most of it. But it is like he says both of his grandparents all the time my parents and travis’s parents and see’s Travis’s mom quite a bit but for some reason when she comes over or we take him over there he clams up and wants either just Travis or myself and if she takes him from one of us all he will do is scream and it upsets me alot. One because he is crying and that is not Lucian he is always so happy. And it just tells me he is scared and it bothers me because I don’t under stand why he would be scared she has been around the whole time and shows so much love to him and he still won’t break the cycle. She came over last weekend and picked him up he screamed until he went to sleep grant it he was tired anyways but she went to put him in his baby bed an he just screamed so then Travis tried and he was ok while he was holding him then he when he put him down he would scream. So then I went in and I finally got him to sleep. I got in his baby bed with him and he went right to sleep. Slept for awhile. I guess I just don’t understand it. I want them to be close for one because it is her grandson and two because she is our only baby sitter if we need one other wise we take him every where with us so he has got to give in one of these days. And not because we need to go anywhere but when we have the baby. They told us we could have him at the hospital with us even when I am in labor but I would have to have someone take him out of the room when I actually start to push. Other than that there is not really a reason to not have him there. I actually want him there. I haven’t been away from him a night since he has been born and I am not sure I want to start now. I know if he doesn’t get better I will not feel comfortable leaving him at all I will be so stressed out waning to know what is going on it will just upset me.
On another note I have my nephew today because my mom has to work. So I will have two 5 year olds almost 6 and an 7 year old almost 8 and Lucian 18 months. They keep me busy all of them together especially since I am expecting it is hard to keep up sometimes and I have realized the bigger my tummy gets the more easily I get tired.But I have to go for now and get the little ones situated and I will be back with updates.