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So it is a new day today! That is the out look I have hopefully everything will be ok today. That’s what I go to bed praying every night, that everything will be better the next day then it was the day before. I got a few hours of sleep last night I guess better than the last few nights. I have to work this after noon and tonight. I hope it goes by fast. I really hope it goes by fast. I want to find a second part time job so that we have more money coming in. I know if I can find something else that it will help us out alot. I think Read the rest of this entry »

So Lucian had his dilation today. Everything is ok but it did not go as anyone planned. He was strictured down very bad in his esophagus. Doctor Rogers said he had to balloon dilate him and then use the regular dilators and he hasn’t had to use the balloon dilator in a long time. He was so strictured shut we didn’t even get a number. So we are going to continue to do this for another 5 months or so and if his esophagus doesn’t stay open then we are going to have to do other things. I am so worried, I am so scared I don’t want my baby to have to go through any more surgeries. He has been through so much already. He is such a good boy. Such a blessing and such a miracle. He may have to have his stricture point in his esophagus taken back apart and put back together. If that is the case it is going to be like Lucian had his primary repair again . Not a good time not at all. This is my poor baby after his primary repair surgery . It makes me so sad to think of that. That was such a difficult time and to think having to face it all over again is terrifying for sure. Of coarse we want what is best for him and doctor rogers has been doing this long enough that we know he knows what he is doing. I have been so stressed out I have broken out into a stress rash. He is doing good though he is eating his regular now. And had some sweet potatoes and prunes to! About 6 bites small ones but it is a start is does so well he opens his mouth and lunges towards it but when his pouch starts to fill up he slows down and wants time to clear it out. It can take some time to feed him quite some time. But it is such a blessing he can do it. I have to work tomorrow and I am so tired I am hoping I get some sleep tonight. I am hoping I ma not getting sick, I haven’t been feeling the best today very tired.. Kind of achy,a slight head ache and a small stuffy nose. I think Travis might have fixed our internet all by himself which is pathetic. He doesnt even get paid by them and we work for them to fix our own stuff and we pay them, but we have complained so much that they are going to reimburse us our money for the time that it has been out. I hope everyone is having a good friday and I wish you all the best.

Just wanted to say happy new years to all! I hope everyone has started there new year off well. I started mine off at work! yippeee! New years eve and new years day. We were so busy its not funny to. I thought I was going to collapse by the end of today. I am glad to be home. We have been having tons of problems with our internet. Speednet I am beginning to think you suck. We have Lucians dilation tomorrow morning we have to be there at 6am. It is going to be an early morning. I am going to need lots of coffee I think this is seriously going on my 9 or 10 day with no sleep. I think I have gotten about 4 hours a night. I am still here though that is what counts for sure! It has seemed like these last few days haven’t been going all that great though Travis’s computer broke. Our internet has been crap. I have been working as much as I can. I try and shove my tiredness to the side and put on a smile anyways. I am going to have to find something to eat soon because I am starving. Hopefully something good. Home health was out and weighed Lucian in at 14lbs 13oz. So were back at that riding back and fourth between 14 and 15 again it was 13 and 14 atleast were almost to 15lbs that’s a mile marker boy! Well I am going to go grab a quick bite to eata nd when I come back if there is internet I would like to post another post. But just wanted to let everyone know that I am alive and still kicken. Happy New Years to all!

So I am so excited. I am only 20 cents away from clearing 100 dollars on adsence. It makes me so excited because I work so hard on it. If I make 50 more cents by today I get a check at the end of January. This means alot to me because I have worked so hard to get ware I am. I want to thank anyone who has been helping me out I am so grateful.

So I was so post to be off for two days but it didn’t happen. I ended up having to work yesterday and today has been a night mare. Our internet has been shit. It has not been working at all lately so that has put everyone in a bad mood. Well me and Travis anyways. More so him than me I think. Just to many things breaking not enough money to fix them and important things like our dryer, our dishwasher, his computer, you name it its broke. I feel like I work for nothing sometimes. I feel like I drain myself just to give our money away and we have nothing. Christmas was good thanks to alot of kind people. I guess the internet guy is gonna be out in the morning. It goes in and out after 5 minutes of being online the most irritating thing in the world. Ill be lucky if I get this posted. I have to work tomorrow. We took Lucian in to get his pictures taken today and we went to the wrong place then we couldn’t get Lucian to smile all he wanted to do was cry he was hungry and tired. Understandable. So we ended up finally getting him to burst a smile here and there and then that was it. Need less to say Travis’s mom got alot of the pictures. So I have them all on a disk and I will post them here soon. So many things to worry about and no time. I just hope things mellow out. I forgot that I had some one from early intervention coming out at 9am and that was a surprise. I was glad she came just was a hectic day.

So where have I been? I have been so busy with everything and Christmas. I think I am finally getting everything put away and cleaned up. The kids got alot of nice things for Christmas and I would say they couldn’t have asked for a much better one. They seemed satisfied so I left it at that. I think every parent wants to get there kids more than what they did to some extent, but in the end as long as they are happy that’s all that matters. And our kids where for sure happy. The winds here have been horrible. It tore some siding off our house and tore our dog house up for our doggy so I have somethings that are on the get fixed list. I am off today and tomorrow. I am hoping to get alot done. The kids are off school until Jan.6th. I work new years eve and new years day! but I don’t mind because it is time in a half! I would much rather be making money that we need. So I started this post like 5 hours ago and I am just now getting back to it. Right when I was getting ready to start typing again my work called and needed me to come in for a few. So I just got home. I have so much to do around the house. I have alot to do period. But who doesn’t? Tomorrow I guess Travis’s mom is coming to pick me up and we are going to take Lucian to get his picture taken, go out for lunch and to take Lucian by aunt Sue’s. Then we will be headed home it is going to take up most of my day but it will be good to get out with Travis’s mom. We seem to have alot in common. We got a crock pot for Christmas so I am using it for the first time today and it is doing well. I put a roast in awhile ago before I left and it has done a wonderful job! I think dinner is going to be wonderful! The kids are excited they are out of school. They have so much to play with they don’t know what to play with first.We have Lucian’s esophageal dilation coming up this Friday. Hopefully it will go well. I think he has strictured down some though. Hopefully just not to badly. Can’t wait to see doctor Roger’s. All in all everything is good, I am just tired. I don’t think I am ever going to get cought up to were I feel like I have enough energy to make it threw the day. It was 53 degree’s today and is so post to be like that tomorrow, hopefully that is the case. I am so tired of all of the bad weather. I know it is December but I cant stand bad weather. And I mean tornadoes in December that is crazy. It all has to do with global warming. One of these days Illinois is going to be like Florida minus the ocean. So maybe like Arizona with out the sand? O I don’t know . I cant wait for the Casey Anthony trail, I seriously hope that be~och pays. This year was good on the toys I only have two things I have to exchange that they got that they already had. So not to bad.